I was hoping that my next blog post would be about Emma's first day of school, our recent trip up north, or some cute story about something silly Ethan did. Unfortunately, I haven't been feeling well enough to blog on a regular basis because I have had "morning" sickness pretty badly. I was placed on some anti-nausea medication by my doctor, but the side effects were worse than the nausea (if you can believe that), so I recently started another medicine that is supposed to help relive the nausea. It has helped some, but I still find myself struggling to be able to get anything done. I am sure many of you Mom's reading this can relate.
I wanted to share my difficulty as of late, not to complain, but to be reminded of how dependent I am on the grace of God in my life. First, I am thankful for my morning sickness. You may think this crazy, but it is a reminder of the tiny gift the Lord has given me to take care of. There are many in the world who are not able to have their own children (through no fault of their own), and I am humbled that the Lord has allowed me to give birth to two beautiful children. (As a side, we need to remember to pray for those who struggle with infertility and to thank God for men and women who show the love of Christ to so many orphaned children through adoption).
Secondly, my morning sickness reminds me that God is in control, I am not. Obviously, this is not something I would choose for myself - I miss going to church, participating in activities, and frankly, I am tired of the bathroom! However, I know the Lord has a plan and that in my weakness, He is strong! I can trust that the Lord will use this for my good and His glory.
Lastly, I am once again reminded that I am so grateful for my family. They have helped with the kids, ironed our clothes, and sat with me on the couch when I have felt the worst. It has been humbling and encouraging to be taken care of when I can't take care of myself - just because they love me.
If this pregnancy is anything like the last time I had morning sickness, it should only last a few more weeks. While I look forward to the day when I no longer wake up and immediately head to the bathroom, I don't want to miss out on the blessings and lessons that He has for me now. I appreciate your prayers and hope to be back to blogging soon!
